Trigger is a word that has been used as of late, either for fun or whenever people get angry. I personally don’t mind it, but I know how much it may harm others. Trigger, according to the urban dictionary, is a term used to describe sensations, images or experiences that trigger a traumatic memory. It is related to post traumatic stress disorder, but I often feel it with my generalized anxiety disorder.
Love comes in different forms and neither it, nor Prince Charming, will be like anything you expected. He won’t sweep you away from all your problems and he will not show up in your backyard promising constant happiness and everything you heart desires. He will most likely not have a horse or a prestigious family lineage, and finding him will require heartbreaking trial and errors; but, he will love you endlessly.
Though this may sound dismal, there’s so much more freedom to explore and experiment with what works once you’ve let go of sure-fire answers. On a personal level, what’s helped me most is completely immersing myself into a multitude of books and journaling about life from this newfound perspective; for my brother, it was dedicating himself to physical health and wellness.
Growing up, you learned that it’s not okay to be yourself. Cultural messages of the so-called “ideal woman” permeated every facet of your life. You were told to cater to everyone and appear perfect even if you were hurting. This meant you had to be thin, conventionally attractive, and always calm and collected, as the “ideal woman” is an effortless endeavor. So, you wore makeup and certain clothes to look “pretty,” because you believed your appearance defined your social worth.
I absolutely love the subject and am interested in all aspects, but my focus will be in clinical science. My goal is to get my PhD so that I can be a clinical psychologist. But that being said, any goal comes with its setbacks.
If I could speak to anyone else who’s going through something similar, I would tell them to be very sure before they cast judgement on existence itself. Be sure that your skepticism comes from a desire for truth, and not the desire for an answer to your personal pain.
I’m sorry for losing sleep. I’m sorry for never being able to sleep. I am sorry for blaming you for normal emotions. I’m sorry for believing what everyone said about me. I’m sorry for not sticking up for my feelings. I’m sorry for continuously putting you in toxic circumstances. I’m sorry for forgetting or ignoring your thoughts. I’m sorry for thinking you are disgusting.
However, despite my general positive attitude and ability to stay on top of my life, I am still constantly being pulled in different directions, which takes its toll on me, both mentally and physically. My life at school, like almost everyone else’s in college, is stressful. I also often find myself unable to sleep at night, constantly thinking about things I have no control over; this is always much more unnerving than small worries like an unfinished term paper or a bad grade on an exam.
“Hey are you okay? Why are you so sad? Are you sick?” What was I supposed to tell everyone? I wish I could have said, “I can’t get out of bed and I do not know why. I have no motivation to do anything and I do not know why. I keep crying everyday and I do not know why.”
As an autism awareness advocate and former Autism Speaks board member, John Robison said in his resignation letter, “Autism Speaks says it’s the advocacy group for people with autism and their families. It’s not, despite having had many chances to become that voice. Autism Speaks is the only major medical or mental health nonprofit whose legitimacy is constantly challenged by a large percentage of the people affected by the condition they target.”
When I arrived to the Speakable event, I thought I knew what to expect. Speakable is an event created by the Services for Students with Disabilities where students, faculty, and staff at the University of Michigan with disabilities get an opportunity to share their personal experiences with their diagnoses. I was amazed that there were sign language interpreters and a large screen where someone was transcribing what the speakers were saying. Each speaker shared their struggles and how they tackle them in day-to-day life.
CAPS, (counseling and psychological services) is yet another acronym amidst an alphabet soup used in the everyday vernacular of the Michigan student. Many first heard of this acronym either during a campus tour or their freshmen orientation. However, most students likely filed away the cliff notes version of services CAPS provides under a list of resources that students have, but believe they will probably never use during their time at Michigan.
The peer based-model has been implemented at universities across the United States and the world, and now has come to the University of Michigan. Over the course of two days, six students and seven psychologists from the Counseling and Psychological Services (CAPS) came together to work with a certified Body Project trainer to learn how to implement and facilitate groups.
Working with the actress to not only tell the character’s story, but also my own, is teaching me not only how to better direct, but how to be an actor and truly channel the deepest truths of the characters into my work.
As is all too common with media, the controversy surrounding 13 Reasons Why had all but faded to the background of the internet as the show’s popularity declined. Then, last week, the show returned to headlines following the publication of a University of Michigan study on the impact of the show on at-risk youth.
When most people think of veterans and mental health, they think of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). The movie takes a unique approach to the trauma veterans face once leaving combat, specifically one not often reflected in the mainstream media: moral injury.
Instagram can often be a black hole of self-doubt. To avoid it, you can branch out and follow some accounts that will “fix your feed.” Here are 10 accounts that are a mix of activists, artists, grandmas, and flower arrangers.
Skepticism is typically the first response to learning about ASMR. Some people find it unsettling or even creepy to watch these videos, whereas others feel relaxed and cared for. There’s a mix of responses that, to a great extent, depends on whether you get the chills from normal stimuli.
While my goal in trying Calm was to improve my sleep, I’ve also been wanting to improve my ability to relax throughout the day, specifically in a way that does not involve screen time. Meditation seemed like the perfect fit, and I enjoyed Calm’s meditation. I felt comfortable breathing, and I successfully allowed myself to be completely immersed in the meditation, temporarily removing myself from all of the extraneous stressors I’d experienced throughout the morning.
How often have we looked into the mirror and hated what we’ve seen? You’re in the bathroom, washing your hands at the sink, and you raise your head. You see your face and judgments pour out of you. Somehow your eyes manage to land on every little flaw–every imperfection that you hate. You try your best to fix them, but to no avail. How do you hide that acne, change the shape of your eyes, cover up that eczema? So instead you leave it there, and walk out the bathroom with a slightly more dejected aura than when you entered.
When I first opened the journal and saw a question asking what I wanted to accomplish in the next thirteen weeks, I was instantly overwhelmed. In thirteen weeks I’ll have graduated college and will be moving to a new city and into an apartment I have yet to find. How am I supposed to make long term goals when I don’t even know the start date of my new job?
I often occupy myself with my phone so that I don’t have to think about whatever’s making me nervous about waking up the next morning, whether that’s a presentation, or work, or just the fact of waking up. So I decided to ditch the phone for a week--before bed, anyway--in order to see how things go.
I am no stranger to silence. I was raised Quaker, and in lieu of traditional church services, Quakers observe a silent worship. When I came to college, I found that this practice was something I missed but I never took the time to keep up silent worship on my own.
DAMN. opens with a question proposed to its audience – “Is it wickedness? Is it weakness?” and Kenny provides us with an immediate answer – “you decide.” Is this referring to his own demons? Is this referring to American struggles? Maybe it’s both?
Danny Brown’s Atrocity Exhibition is first and foremost one of the most unique albums I’ve ever listened to. Danny has always been an artist that a lot of people don’t actively listen to because of the shrill voice he uses when he raps and the heavily explicit subject matter of his music. I’ll readily admit that before Atrocity Exhibition, I thought most of his work felt annoying and excessive.
Two weeks ago, I took a week-long break from all of the social media sites I have accounts on: Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and Reddit. I’m not somebody who posts or interacts with social media a great deal, at least compared to a lot of my peers, but regardless, I was very curious if not using them at all would affect my mentality.
Early in my first semester, it was maybe two coffees a week when I was exhausted. Then I discovered my love of Mountain Dew. I started downing glasses several times a week during the day when it was too hot and too late for coffee. Next thing I knew, it was at least one cup of caffeine almost every day. So much for not getting addicted.
This past Saturday I went and saw Split, the new M. Night Shyamalan film. I walked into the theater with next to no expectations as Mr. Shyamalan has continued to disappoint audiences time and time again ever since his breakthrough film “The Sixth Sense.”
Although this Mid-Week Music is a little different than usual, songs from musicals and musical movies always seem to make me happier and I hope you enjoy them too. This playlist includes songs from Wicked, La La Land, RENT, Hairspray, and many more.
As Women's History Month comes to a close, I wanted to share another playlist of some amazing female artists that are making history right now. Despite the additional obstacles to success that many face, women have made incredible contributions to society, including the music industry, and this playlist is just a taste of that impact.
I present a collection of songs that speak truth to the sentimentality of the past. A few retrospectively, some as old as the moments themselves, yet all inexplicably linked to the people, events, and various headspaces that I find my thoughts fixating on.
With midterms coming up, we all need a little more joy in our lives. These are all songs that make me the happiness when I am upset. With artists like Zedd and Mikky Ekko, your stress will instantly melt away. Delta Rae said it best: jealous is the night when the morning comes!
In honor of Valentine’s Day being this week, this playlist’s theme is about the cycle of love. From the first days of having a crush, to the honeymoon phase, to the fall out, and then unfortunate post-breakup stage, whatever part of “love” you may find yourself at, there is a song for you.
I still don’t know what I’m doing this summer, and with each passing day I become more and more in the minority. But as the weather starts to change, I’m starting to get excited for the things that I do know will happen, like trips to Cedar Point.
Through this, I began to think “why do we get so upset at ourselves when we struggle?” Why don’t we take the time to enjoy the struggle, much like my ‘little dudes’ do? Thus, I’ve begun to let my boys inspire me and I hope they do you too.
Here is a cheesy reminder for whatever you might be struggling with: stick with it, do not give up, and success will come. It is always an accomplished feeling releasing the fish back into the ocean because you have the privilege of having a little bit better of an understanding of the perplexing and beautiful life beneath the surface
I’ve learned to have a greater appreciation of ‘moments’, of instances that are pleasantly unplanned, unexpected, and magical. ‘Moments’ are rare and pure occurrences of unaltered life; ‘moments’ are not staged. A ‘moment’ is often a happy accident, much like this view from an early morning hike, and is a reminder to appreciate what is right in front of you and to be present in the present.
When life gets too chaotic and I feel overwhelmed by school work, managing my social life, figuring out my future, and keeping my mental and physical health under control, I simply take a step back and treat myself with something simple and easy. Today was a hot cocoa day.
I chose this photo and wrote these words in honor of National Eating Disorder Awareness week, this week. I struggled with disordered eating for five years, a struggle that was fueled by my inner insistence that beauty necessitated perfection. However, the truth is that perfect things may be beautiful, but not all beautiful things are perfect.
Making music is my expression, like an interactive journal. As I hear the sounds produced at my fingertips, it comes out like a voice; it allows me to surface emotions swept to the back of my mind and set them free. It liberates me.
But by taking the time to acknowledge the brighter parts of my day, I've found that the tough stuff becomes easier to get through. And no matter how much seems to be going wrong, it's helpful to remember that there are always things to be grateful for that make life worth celebrating.
When you’re feeling down and the last thing you want to do is leave your house, sometimes you need to go to the gym to keep up your physical health. When you’re sick, sometimes you need to stay in and rest even if your FOMO feels like it’s going to crush you. Don’t prioritize short-term satisfaction over long-term well-being.
Many times I have been asked by my therapist what might be ways to help relieve stress or take my mind away from obsessive thoughts. For me, this question seems easy to dismiss, yet I always struggle to come up with an answer. In truth, it’s one of the most meaningful questions I’ve been asked.
Evans revealed that his anxiety almost kept him from accepting the role of Captain America. He knew that the press and a large amount of public speaking would be involved in becoming Cap, and he knew that his anxiety would be very loud in this environment. After talking to his friends, family, and therapist, he said, “It started to feel like maybe the thing you’re most scared of is exactly what you should do.”
This notion of required proof of authenticity highlights how this speculation is highly problematic in nature. This speculation dissociates Sylvia Plath’s experiences as a human struggling with mental health issues from how the public viewed Sylvia Plath as an artist and icon. It is never required for one to authenticate one’s experiences in order for such experiences to be deemed valid or of artistic valuable, and this is especially so with mental health struggles.
Although most of Mendes’ songs in his first two albums are centered around relationships and romance, the experiences he drew from were very ambiguous. However, his self-titled 2018 album brings something different. His song ‘In My Blood’ contains emotional lyrics, including: “Help me, it’s like the walls are caving in. Sometimes I feel like giving up, no medicine is strong enough, someone help me, I’m crawling in my skin.”
In an interview with Apple music, Eilish revealed that, “Depression has controlled sort of like everything in my life, for my whole life” and that she has always been a melancholy person. She explains that it is okay to feel sad all the time and that it is experienced differently by other people, and there is nothing wrong with that.
Jamil reported that she felt “bombarded” by images of how the ideal woman should look and act, even during a time where this narrative wasn’t instantly available in the palm of your hand. One additional factor at play was a lack of alternative role models.
Aside from being proud Michigan alumni, Benj Pasek and Justin Paul are composers primarily known for their work in Dear Evan Hansen, a musical that highlights the life of a high school teen and his community following a classmate’s suicide.
Lady Gaga became the face for mental illness at the 2019 Grammys with her inspiring and emotionally raw speech that took a twist, both literally and figuratively, on the hearts of the millions who connected with her message. Upon receiving the award for Best Pop Duo/Group Performance for her duet “Shallow” with Bradley Cooper, Gaga quickly moved past the typical statements of appreciation to God, her family, costars, and industry personnel to a reflective statement regarding the film that produced “Shallow.”
Clifford Beers is widely regarded as the pioneer of the “American mental hygiene movement.” This movement began when Beers learned he was suffering from bipolar disorder while working on Wall Street. This eventually lead him to attempt suicide and spend years in and out of hospitals. Beers’ firsthand experience with a lack of proper treatment for mental health in hospitals spurred his work in the field.
When the world lost Chester Bennington, people were shocked and appalled despite the vocalist having openly and publicly discussed his mental health struggles in interviews. Even by listening to popular songs such as “Crawling” and “Numb,” it was clear that these lyrics were portraying the demons that Bennington, the writer of the songs, faced.