Self Expression Sunday #3
This is a poem I wrote a year ago about feeling needed and validated by my friendships. It’s something that I have struggled with for a very long time. I’m working on placing less value on my relationship with others and more value on myself as an individual. I think that’s the only way I can grow my relationships with other people. I’ve realized that my mental health cannot be sustained without a stable base of self-respect, and in order to gain that self-respect I have to stop changing myself to fit what others want me to be.
Rooted
From a seed,
I grew
Into a tree.
Became a home for birds and bees.
Adorned by flowers and bright green leaves,
Critters came and made a home in me.
To be needed
my only need.
Being loved
my ecstasy.
My branches grew,
so did my roots.
I spent my energy
Making fruit.
Making sure it was sweet.
Making sure they’d want me.
Making sure they’d never leave.
I didn’t grow up alone.
But when the soil dried.
I was on my own.
I did not care
for my leaves,
flowers
Or tasty treats.
My branches heavy with rotting fruit.
I wished desperately to trade my roots
For wings or feet or anything to move.
To not be stuck as a tree.
Forced to sway alone in the breeze.